It has been ages since I've written on this blog. I don't think it has any followers anyways, so in reality this is just a way for me to get all my bullshit out there. It's been literally 5 years since I've posted a blog entry. I've probably not even journaled in that time either. Holy crap does time fly by. Life has been such a fast paced tragedy for me. Since my last post, I entered into a committed relationship, helped raise her child, and learned so much about myself. That relationship just ended a few weeks ago. It was my choice. I can't commit to someone who doesn't understand the needs of their partner, and doesn't let their partner be who they are. But since that has happened, and I've had less time to worry about taking children to day care, and making my partner happy, so I have opened up a whole host of emotions I didn't honestly know I was holding on to. They suck. Balls. I don't know how else to even describe them. Two words... Emotional dependence. That is me currently in a nutshell. It's not healthy, and I need to work myself out of it. But boy does it feel good to be around people who are as emotionally free and loving as I am. Confusing, but it feels good. I don't even know where to go from here.... maybe I'll get back into blogging and the flow will become easier. Who know. This is a new chapter in my life, and I'm not sure what's going to happen from here. All I can say, it universe bring it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!