Change...

Change is difficult.

In fact, some times it can be down right depressing. Acclimation into my new living environment / state / people has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me. Ups and downs, all along the spectrum of emotion. As I write this, I find myself feeling a longing for acceptance. Not only did I move to another state, I moved somewhere where I don't know people. I don't have many established friendships up here. As a very social being, I need my friends around in order to feel settled. So that is something I have to work on.

I also find myself going through an emotional purge. Emotions I did not know were still a part of who I am are surfacing, and I'm not sure how to deal with them quite yet. Hopefully some clarification will come soon.

I'm on a hunt for a job up here. I am putting out some good vibes, and expecting something soon.

Last night was a bit of an emotional night. I helped to kill a goose for dinner. While I did not make the cut myself, I did hold the bird down to be slaughtered. I couldn't help but cry as it was dying. An expression of gratitude was given to the poor bird.

Well I suppose that was all that was on my mind this morning.